Before I start typing any further, I would like to thank my friend Kwok Tung, for letting me stay at his place and for picking me up in the middle of the night when I reached KL on the first day. Also for fetching me to places I need to be and for introducing me to some of your friends. I am forever grateful to your parents and sisters ever since Primary One. I love them all so very dearly.
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Last week I saw my friend Steven posting up free tickets to Jason Chen's Live in KL concert tickets. I wasn't actually planning to go because I did not really know Steven even though we attended the same college. We only made a few conversations about film during my last semester but I decided to just ask him anyways and so he invited me to join him and his two other friends. So I made an impromptu trip down to Kuala Lumpur ( literally buying the ticket last minute) and little did I know that just having a small getaway could inspire me.
I was feeling a little bipolar these few weeks and it really frustrates me when I do not have the reasons to why I am feeling that way. I was also actually hesitant to go down because it was absolutely last minute and I was worried I could not find a place to stay. Then I told myself "Ashley just do it", I bought my bus tickets before my childhood friend even confirmed with me if I could stay at his place. THANK GOD I COULD.
The next day, I had a small conversation with my friend's dad and I asked him what motivates him to work hard and how did he overcome his failures. "I've changed about 17 jobs my whole life to find what I really love to do and I told myself I needed better opportunities , I need to do this for my family". I was dumbfounded and ask if those decisions ruin his reputation and he just simply answered "Always leave because you are too good for the company, because in order to grow you need something more challenging. So when you try something new and even if you hate it, give your best, try with all your heart so that you can leave with dignity" I've realized that wise people only need a few words and those words are able to impact you for the rest of your life.
Later on I met up with Steven and his other two friends namely, Rachel and Pearline. Both gorgeous and smart. We had dinner at McDonalds before heading off to the concert. While Pearline was chatting away with Rachel, I on the other hand had a small conversation with Steven. I've heard alot about him when I enter college and a lot were negative comments but I just thought it would be great to know him myself. He told me that he was bullied back in high school as well and he had bad grades, so I told him how i felt about pursuing my Degree and he told me " People think I'm cocky but I am just trying to get done with my diploma because I do not want to make my parents disappointed again so I stop caring whatever people said cause after all whether you are good or bad people are always going to have something to say and do not be afraid to approach people sometimes you have to create your own opportunities" That encouraged me that wherever we come from, we are never too small to do great things in life.
Before Jason Chen performed , a local band did. Her name was also Ashley (HEYYYYYYYY SISTA) and her vocals are amazingly strong , there was this song that she sang ( i forgot what) but she did mentioned that it spoke to her. Of course many people were there because of Jason, but what got to me was, I felt that she delivered that particular song breathtakingly and her character really stands out and how she would dance a little, swaying to the beat makes me feel that she does not care how people would look at her. She just took her time and sang and at the end of her last gig she said thank you and left the stage. If it was me, I would have stop at the third song. She showed me how important it is for one to have strong faith in what one can do and all you need is a lil confidence.
During my last day in KL, I was watching morning cartoons with my friend's 10 year old sister.
She talked about her favourite cartoons , her favourite color, what time she would normally wake up. I asked her,
"What does happiness means to you?"
"Happiness is spending time with people you love and doing things that make you feel happy. FOR EXAMPLE : like how Anna would care for Elsa in the Frozen movie, that's so sweet right?"
I looked at her not knowing what to say. I understand that a lot of people would answer what she has answered but seeing her saying it with her eyes lighting up and seeing her blush a little and giggle over little things makes it so genuine. And I asked myself, when was the last time I felt like that?
Here, I've learn that sometimes when you're sad the best ways to make yourself feel better does not necessarily mean finding the need to do some retail therapy or talking to someone older, sometimes all you need is talking to children because they will make you realized , that was you , you were genuinely happy and you can still make the choice to feel that way.
Dear darling , I hope your heart will always be as pure as it is now. I pray that when negative people try to influence you, you'll know the importance of staying true to yourself. I pray that you'll forever be genuinely happy for as long as you shall live.
I honestly think that everyone has their own getaway, some people break dance, some people sing , some people read.
While I was in the bus I felt calm, this reminds me how much travelling means to me and though it is just a short trip I've always love to try new things and to explore. I felt capable and independent and this is where I belong, to travel.
So what does happiness means to me?
Happiness is getting to know new people, to understand their culture, their language and it is not obligatory for one to go overseas to do that because everyone has a different background, they have a different way of communicating, different body language as well. Happiness is also going to unfamiliar places, to take pictures and asking strangers for directions. Happiness to me is travelling cause travelling is learning, its about falling in love.
Its living.
I want all of you to know, listening to all of your stories inspires me and that's what keeps me blogging. I love all of my readers whoever you may be.
Till then, much love ,
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