I've always been very ashamed of my skin condition and every time when my friends notice a spot or two i'll always said that it's rashes or bites from an unusual insect or i don't know, i'll find all kinds of reason to cover up.
I've Eczema since i was born and my mum had always through it was rashes but when i started to use creams for rashes it just got worst and it spreads really fast if you don't apply the right medicine. ( don't worry Eczema can not be spread to your friends or anyone around you even if you have skin contact with them so NO WORRIES K?! DONT STAY AWAY FROM ME! heh)
Eczema can not be healed. However, it can be maintained by applying the right cream and also keeping your room clean ALL THE FREAKING TIME. It's annoying cause I'm a lazy person.
Eczema is almost always itchy and since i have fair skin it often shows redness or brownish colour ( not like shit colour la but macam your scar or bruises) Thats why i don't like to sweat because when i do my Eczema will start to come. I also HATE insect bites because when start scratching the side of the bite, it can also cause Eczema. STRESS is also one of the reasons why the symptoms of Eczema gets worst. That is why when my exams are around the corner i usually stay at home unless i have to go for my classes in college (which i have no choice). My life is so ANNOYINGLY ASGSDLGJDFHJSLGJS. heh.
I've never liked to wear dresses and when i was younger, i always wear long sleeves and long pants so that people won't see my scars and the reddish dots. Eczema also leaves rough skin that is really hard to heal and even if you use the best lotion you can find in a drugstore or the most expensive ones it still takes a long time for it to get better.
Normally i get Eczema on my fingers cause i normally do the dishes at home and when I'm exposed to detergent or chemicals we use to wash plates my fingers get GILI and itchy. It also happens behind the knees and elbow , neck and most of the parts that collects sweat. Even on my upper forehead, my face once awhile ( MACAM SEKARANG LA). And i find it embarrassing cause i mean come on who doesn't want to look presentable ? Sometimes i have in on my lips and it's so hard for me to eat burger sometimes cause if lena the sauce means ahhhh WALAO EHHH boles mati.
Thing is i've come to overcome this fear of going out when Eczema decides to be a bitch and breaks out on my face (RUDEASS) since i was 15. And i also started to wear skirt and dresses and whatever the hell i want to wear now because i think that despite i have a bad skin condition i think that i am beautiful the way i am. And if i am going to live by everyday listening to what other people say, its bad. But what's worst is living by every single day judging myself, indirectly judging God's creation. I definitely have no rights to do so.
I love who i am. Yes, I'm short. Yes, I'm not hot or have a hot figure. Yes, i have a blunt nose ( IF YOU GUYS HAVENT NOTICE, GOOD!! DONT GO SAY " EH ASH, YOUR NOSE.......MACAM VOLDEMORT LA." NOOOOOO.STAPH AND SHUTUP) and YES, i have Eczema. But i am also HUMAN. Just a normal girl from Penang trying to live her life to the fullest and I am also a girl with BIG DREAMS that are yet to be fulfilled.
Be who you are, then you're respected. ;)
If you guys want to know more about Eczema click the link below.
http://www.webmd.com/skin-problems-and-treatments/guide/atopic-dermatitis-eczema
http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/14417.php
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