I had a few rough days and I am struggling to get out of all those troubles.
No doubt that i am human and i make mistakes but the important part is to look forward.
Talked to my leader in church today and it really did make me feel better. :)
Me :
I am really tired ken I dont know how to tell you its like im so scared of losing friends that i keep everyone
I honestly really admire those who dont give a damn bout anything its like sometimes i cared too much and then end up im the one getting hurt. Sometimes i rant in twitter cause facebook is so public I am so confuse is it my problem or ppl just dont see the things i do for them? How am i able to get out from this shit hole?
Ken :
Ok,there's this things that i learned along the way it is that,dun expect anything in return u have a kind heart and a caring one too that is a plus for u but DUN expect anything in return do it out of love. Just
keep doing good,care for them..it's healthy..as long as u treat friends
the way that they should be treated then u are definitely not wrong. when u stop doing good,that is a problem I dun have the perfect solution but hope u catch a thing or two
Me :
I dont
expect anything in return , its just that sometimes it really
disappoints me that yr own bestfriend is like not respecting what you
dont want to tell the other person I know even if even human fails us God never fails
sometimes it just hits me so hard that i break down
honestly im not very happy these days its like im struggling to find happiness im so afraid of what ppl think of me because ive met a lot of ppl , ppl who can betray you ,ppl who pay back with revenge and a lot more
And im scared that i wont be able to me okay anymore. I
am so afraid of ppl talking bout me, im not perfect i do make a lot of
mistakes. Maybe some i cant even forgive myself because i did it out of
anger. But if their my bestfriend , true friend no matter what they'll
tell me properly right?
Ken :
Along
the way you've met good and bad pp,now this is the world and people are
people..even I can fail u but i will always look forward to better the
things out.You've developed good communication skills when u meet people
but now as u are a big girl d,u have come to realize that wow..now I
see the world is full of all kinds of ppl..FOR me..i
For
me..i will continue to make friends as it will help me in life next
time,networking wise*..where u need to know ppl,it's good for u but just
beware not to be too close..friends also got boundaries know ma?must
take care also
yeaa that's about it..i can't really things straight now cuz with work by my side =] but hope u catch something
dun smile because u are happy..smile because it makes u happy..even tho WHATEVER situation u are in..
i smile tho but yea it depends still
Me :
Okay another thing, as you know my dad past away when i was young and my
mum had to migrate here to penang. And i kept it all to myself the
struggles and the hurt to see my family fall apart. I start to get along
with guys thats why i ended up with a lot of bf that was b4 i accepted
the Lord. And i start telling them my family prblems. A friend of mine
say im an attention seeker or maybe im looking for pity which i have no
intention on doing. I honestly only tell the ppl im close to in order to
let it out but my friend who finds out that a few ppl know and those
are my exes i mean i was form 1 i didnt think so much. Myfriend is mad
at me because of this am i wrong?i mean its not like i planned for it to
happened
Ken :
From now on,dun have to tell anyone about your past..Unless there are
somethings that u wanna mention for testimony sake.Unless the person is
interested to know,u decide for urself whether u want to share a not.Ur
past is HISTORY..new beginning starts today and a bright future awaits
u..U are not an attention seeker..it is just ur personality..can't
change that..u love to social and not many people can do that..DUN TAKE
WHAT ppl say about u seriously..whenever a statement is done on u..IF u
think it is nonsense..drop it..if u thing it kinda ring a bell and u
wanna reflect on it..then do so..Important thing at the end of the day
as a human..u are moving forward.Even if ur friends thinks that way..u
can voice out BUT with a good tone..even if u sipek angry and mad..u
have to control urself..U can do it..I've done it and i'm telling you it
is not that easy..BUT it can be done
Me:
Then how am i to know which friends can be kept and be trusted and which cant?
Ken :
U will know..those that pull u down..talk to them..tell them how u feel..those that elevates u..those are good company..
Me:
I really am thankful for yr advice. Thank you so much. Felt better now.
You know that feeling when the one that you trust so much let you down? The feeling really sucks.
Ken:
Ah
well,been thru that..hurts like hell..mine was in just left without
giving me a reason.so called friend..female..same class..Pfftt.. but
now..SET FREE
Just give TIME some time to heal..dun need to hold grudge..u are at the losing end only
Just cast ur cares upon our heavenly father
Me:
I see, whats yr main goal in life as a human being?
Ken :
Wow,big
question..i have a big goal..despite earning good money..having a
beautiful family..Winning souls..that is the most important thing to me
and i have this hobby now..always SMILE and encourage ppl and make ppl
happy and show God's love , not by my strength but by His strength :) Learn to move forward, the word is LEARN. :)
Me:
True, i guess i cared too much on what people say bout me good and bad i get effected by the atmosphere around me very fast.
Kenneth :
Yeaa..that's why words and bring a person down..just ONE word..gone
case..that's why we need to feed ourselves with something that will
benefit us..Erm..if u are gonna be affected by the surrounding..then u
need to learn something..when i worked at this company..this guy..he was
really down..he said stress..so i just gave him words of
encouragement..hey bro..look i know u have a problem..but guess what..i
have a solution for u..U have been looking too much on ur
problems..meaning..always the problem is surrounding him constantly and
he is IN it..i told him.."Be like an eagle..LOOk down at ur PROBLEM..u
see things better,problems are for us to solve..U can do it!i believe in
u"..there u go Sue..words are very contageous..I DUN WANT PPL'S sadness
and lazyness to affect me BUT i want my spirit to affect
ppl..LIVELY..full of encouragement..full of meaning in life. But first....u have to feed urself with positiveness
it starts today tho =] ..just say lahh..i'm sad now..BUT i CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY..i CHOOSE* so yeaa..
=] before u know it..negativity can never really affect u anymore.
Me:
Hahaha! yea true.
OH THANK YOU SO MUCH!
Kenneth:
=] u r welcome BUT..after u got those qualities NEVER boast instead
always help..cuz once u start boasting how great u are how awesome u are
and NOT careful.. what i'm trying to say is..Still be humble always
after u achieve success.
Life is too short for emo days. CHOOSE to be happy. :)
Today and everyday! :D
People who love you for you and nothing else.
Live life to the fullest, Learn from the past mistakes and moved forward to seek greater things in life. :)
Dont be intimidated by people just because of their shape and sizes , speak up for yourself. :)
I want to Thank Kenneth for those ever awesome advices that makes me think positively about life. That every second is great if you CHOOSE to believe it is. :) God bless.
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